Who Am I?
There comes a moment in a woman’s life where everything feels like a routine. We wake up and do the same thing over and over again never thinking twice about it. It’s like we become programmed, I know I felt like I was programmed. It wasn’t until I really sat down and looked at my life and I thought to myself... who am I?
It’s not a bad thing to wonder who you are. We get so caught up in our everyday that we sometimes forget about ourselves. We forget that we are more than a mother, more than an employee and more than a wife. We are individuals with goals and minds that need to be worked on. We get complacent sometimes and that’s when we forget about who we are.
There was a time last year when I realized that I was forgetting who I was and didn’t know the type of person I was becoming. One thing I can say that never changes about me is my faith. My faith is strong and when I don’t know what I should be doing I go directly to the source... God. As soon as I realized I was losing myself in my everyday I asked God what I should be doing and he answered.
No he didn’t whisper in my ear or appear in the water as I was washing the dishes he came to me as a feeling. He gave me a desire to attend a local women’s conference, something I have never done before. He needed me to go to this conference to focus on myself. I remember after that conference I couldn’t stop talking about it and I know people where tired of hearing about it but I felt like I was rewired and I longed for Gods word. It felt like I was thirsty for it but the problem was I didn’t know how to fulfill this feeling. I can read all day long but I didn’t know how to study, especially the word of God because I didn’t understand what I was reading. So I looked for motivational books and daily readings that paired up with scripture to get me started. This helped me get refueled so I can keep encouraging and motivating others. I needed to empower and push myself to keep going.
During my studying I came across a scripture that I have grown to love and attached myself to. It’s fairly easy and short but mighty in its context.
“You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.”
When I read this it was like something clicked. God knows me! Your telling me that even though I was forgetting who I was and what my purpose was, God didn’t? Yes girl it’s that simple! God knows you better than you know yourself, know this for sure, He is not going to let you forget who your are and who He created you to be. You see God created you for a purpose. Before you took your first breathe, God called your name and strategically put the pieces of the puzzle together. Even when you feel as though you are lost on this journey; that same scripture explains how no matter where we find ourselves; God will always be there. This is encouraging to a woman that has become side tracked by the many responsibilities that arise.
So remember you’re not just a mother and you’re not just a wife. There is more to your life than driving your kids around town and cooking dinner for your family. You have a purpose that needs to be fulfilled. Take some time for yourself and work on you. Attend conferences, book readings, bible classes and workshops. Anything that will get you pumped and ready to work your purpose. Remember to put God first in all that you do and he will not only stir up that passion in you but also give you the resources you need to make it happen.